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Tomorrow I will have exactly three weeks until my due date. And contrary to what I have been wanting for the last miserable three months, I am hoping I will make it until then. I had a doctor appointment yesterday and found out I'm dilated to a 3 and 75% effaced. When I found out, I didn't think much of it because my neighbor was at that same point for about two and half weeks before she had her baby. Then the stress began as I began to tell other people. Come to find out it can be typical after a first pregnancy to stay at a 3 for awhile. However, with a first pregnancy usually once you get there, you usually progress a little faster. So now I'm being told that it's very likely my baby will come within the week! Holy crap! I am so not ready for this.
We are still lacking some baby essentials, I still need to pack for the hospital, I still have cleaning and organizing at my house to do, and most importantly, I still have so much to do at work to prepare to take some maternity leave! Our new office manager is supposed to start on Monday, and I still need to train her, plus finish training another girl to cover for the billing while I'm gone. Not only am I wondering if I'll be able to get everything done before the baby, but I'm wondering if I'll even have the energy. I have suddenly been hit with total and complete exhaustion. I feel too tired to even think.
All my life, I have procrastinated. Big school papers - the night before, packing for my mission - the night before, packing to move - the day of, the list goes on. You would think I'd learn, but apparently this major character flaw of mine has proven to be a problem even with something as big and important as bringing a baby into the world.

Why do I stress so much?

So, I am just wondering if all women stress to the same point that I am about naming their children. I yet again, came up with another list of names that I like that we could possibly use for our baby. I have never wanted to have one name picked out for any of my babies because I want to wait until I see and hold the baby to make sure the name fits. So why am I stressing so much now before the baby is actually here? It is driving me nuts that we do not yet have a name picked and I'm not getting any strong feelings about what it should be. I'd ask for help, but I don't think any suggestions are going to get me much further than I already am.

I am feeling like such a horrible mother-to-be. I don't have a name picked out, the nursery isn't even started (let alone, done), we don't have many baby essentials - such as a carseat, our house is in a completely chaotic state with more to do than we have time or money for, and I am just sooooo not feeling even close to ready to deliver a baby or bring one home. I think the chaotic life of a mother has already begun for me. I am there ladies -- so much to do with no time or energy to do it. Does anyone ever feel ready for a baby? Please tell me that I am not a totally horrible person for not having every little aspect of my life prepared for this little one like I feel every other mother-to-be has. Is there anyone else out there who gets to this point in pregnancy with as little done as I have?