It's 5:00am, and even though I only have about 3 hours of sleep behind me, I can't seem to shut my mind off. I lay awake in my bed that sits in the room my grandmother lived most of her life in and all I can think about is her not being here.
It's still surreal to me to think about a life without my Grandma Jean in it. As I lay here, thinking about her living her vibrant days in this house that I now spend my days in, my heart starts to miss her unending optimism and zest for life, but I am comforted as I can feel her on the other side and I can feel her happiness. For she has her mind back, and she is free from physical pain and limitations that she can now live with all that vibrance and zest yet again.
Although I don't know exactly how things are in the spirit world - I don't know if there are young children spirits or if all are adults, but I simply can't imagine a world without little children. And my heart swells with joy as I think about my Grandma joyfully teaching kids again. For anyone who has lost a child in this life, I hope you can take comfort in knowing that they have recently gained an incredible woman in their lives who will bring them joy, music, and education. I am certain that my grandmother is choosing to spend her time and her talents with the kids. And she is making them feel loved beyond measure.
So although I lay here, missing my sweet Grandma, I am so, so happy for her and the joy that I know she is feeling.
