Wednesday, December 9, 2009

The Reason


Every year when Christmas time comes around and all are busy with the hustle and bustle of fighting crowds while Christmas shopping, fighting traffic while trying to get the shopping done, attending Christmas parties, cooking for the parties, and just trying to live amongst it all, we are all often reminded to keep in our minds the Reason for the Season. Although we hear the phrase and many times we are the ones saying it, sometimes that's all it is -- just a phrase, and we don't take the time out of our busy lives to truly contemplate the miracle that took place over 2000 years ago for which we celebrate at this time of year. I, for one, know that I too often treat the season a little too lightly.

Tonight as I rocked Isabelle to sleep, I sang her some Christmas songs (as I have grown ever tired of singing the same primary songs over and over again). As I held my precious baby in my arms and sang the words to "Silent Night" and "O Holy Night," I was overcome with a feeling of awe and amazement at the miracle of our Savior's birth. After having experienced childbirth now and bringing such a sweet spirit into this world, I now have a deeper appreciation for the miracle of birth in and of itself, and now as Christmas is approaching, I have a new appreciation for our Savior's birth.

Oh, how I am grateful for that sweet Mary who brought Christ into this world and for my Savior who was willing to enter this world in such humble circumstances and live to one day take upon himself my sins that I might be able to return to my Heavenly Father.

This truly is such a wonderful time of the year. I hope that amongst the craziness of this month, I will be able to remember The Reason for the Season.

Monday, December 7, 2009

'Tis the Season

I wish I had the time and the energy to do separate blogs for Thanksgiving and the Christmas Season, but I don't, so you're just gonna get one short post and a few pics.
For Thanksgiving, we went to my parents house for a deliciously yummy meal. We all went to see Disney's A Christmas Carol and then went home for our good Thanksgiving dinner and some fun games afterward. The house was crazy as usual with people everywhere and kids running around like crazy, but it was fun to be with the family.


On Friday, the family went to the Festival of Trees which was long, fun, and exhausting. The traffic getting there was probably the most exhausting part. I vote next year, we don't choose a Friday night to go. We watched a little Sunshine Generation performance which brought back some good ol' memories of our Colorado Christmases with many Sunshine shows. Although, I have to say, I think ours were much better than the one we saw. What can I say? My mom was a dang good director. :)
For the first time in a long time, I stood in a long line to see Santa Claus. How could I not stand in line for little Belle's first Christmas. It was just a shame that we were there so late, cuz it was past her bedtime, and she was not quite as happy as she could have been. But she wasn't screaming or sleeping, so I guess I can't really complain too much.
Now that we went to the Festival of Trees and officially began our Christmas season, I guess I better get shopping and decorating. I'm just a bit behind this year. Is it bad if we just don't decorate for Christmas?


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Pumpkin Patch

My family took a little trip to a pumpkin patch yesterday that is owned by my mission president - The Red Barn in Santaquin. It was lots of fun to go with the nieces and nephews and to take our own little pumpkin.

I know I look incredibly fat in this pic, but this is us on the hayride.

Kathryn, Britt, and Dean on the hayride

Dad (Grandpa), Mom (Grandma), Courtney, Kathryn, and Britt

The Cook Fam (minus Courtney who was on Grandma's lap)
Camille, Mark, Jason, Spencer, and Morgan

Our cute pumpkin all snuggled up

Dad, Belle, and Mom

Britt, Dean, and the third wheel .... uh, I mean Kathryn


Us with the pumpkins we picked. Isn't Belle's little pumpkin so cute?!

Kathryn and Belle in her cute pumpkin outfit the aunts bought her

Grandpa and the Cook kids. They were so excited to see him.

Monday, October 19, 2009

3 Months Old!!!





I truly cannot believe it. As of yesterday, our little Isabelle is now three months old. She is growing so fast. It is a bittersweet thing to watch her grow. It is so fun to watch her personality develop and watch her learn new things, but it's sad as she passes through each stage of life and to know that she will never be at that stage again. I guess I will have to get used to the bittersweet, as I'm sure it won't change for me throughout the rest of her life.
At three months old, our little Belle is smiling and cooing more than ever. She'll laugh occasionally and of course it's cuter than ever when she does. Although she doesn't sleep much, she is generally a very happy baby.
She has already learned to roll over on her own, as she has done it twice now! It's so exciting to see her do new things. Each new development just makes me excited for the next.
We truly love our little Isabelle Jane and are so grateful to have her sweet spirit in our lives.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

My Little Oasis


In the past, I have, on occasion, heard mothers talk about their only alone time being in the shower. And I always thought to myself that it was a bit of an exaggeration. I would think that there are times they can pass the kids on to the dad or babysitter. Or there are even times they could sit the kids in front of the TV while they sit and read a book or something. I just did not ever believe that their ONLY alone time could possibly be the few minutes they spend in the shower.
Well ladies and gentleman, I now understand. (I feel like I've been saying that a lot the last few months.)
When I step into the shower and close that shower curtain, it's as if I'm stepping into a little oasis away from my daily responsibilities - the baby, work, the house, etc.
Oh how I relish those few minutes each day.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Blessings From Above


Every day, as we watch Isabelle grow and develop into her own little person, I realize more and more how truly blessed we are to have her in our lives. To just think back to the day we found out we were pregnant with this surreal idea of a child growing in me for nine months and then to now see this incredibly beautiful girl in our arms in what seemed to be just seconds later -- it is truly a miracle.

Since Isabelle was born 5 weeks ago, I have now heard two different stories of mothers who recently had similar deliveries to mine - overly lengthy pushing. Unfortunately, neither of the stories turned out with as an incredible result as mine. Although both babies survived the experience, one has suffered from bleeding in his brain and will most likely have permanent brain damage; and the other has had permanent physical damage to his face and head. To think that our little Isabelle went through the same traumatic experience as these other babies, but came out with only temporary wounds to her head is truly a miracle to me.


Our Heavenly Father has truly blessed us with such a beautiful baby who is growing and developing perfectly. Beyond all other blessings that I have received in my life, this has been the most miraculous. I will forever feel indebted to Heavenly Father for the blessing of our beautiful daughter.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Introducing Isabelle Jane



It's crazy to think that today Isabelle is already two weeks old! I apologize that two whole weeks have gone by and I still have not posted any updates. However, I'm sure all you mothers out there will understand. It has been an incredibly exhausting two weeks with little time and/or energy to do "fun" things like blog.

Now that I am finally beginning to feel like a normal human being again with some energy, I am ready to start trying to do some normal things. So I guess I can update everyone on Isabelle's grand entrance into this world and post some cute pics of her.

To everyone's great surprise, after three months of regular and painful contractions, and early cervical progression, Isabelle did not come early. In fact, she came on her very due date! When my water broke the morning of her due date, I told Dave that she must be like her mother -- she likes to do things as planned and on schedule.

I'll start from the beginning and if labor and delivery stories bore you, I'll allow you to just skip forward to the pictures.

Everything started early July 18th. I woke up the night of the 17th with some painful contractions, but nothing too different from those prior. However, I had the thought, maybe the baby will come tonight. The contractions didn't seem to intensify so I went back to bed. Before I knew it, it was 4:30am and Dave was up getting ready to go to work. He was dressed and about ready to go when I woke up. I sat up in bed and said to him, "Darn it, I thought that the baby might come before you left for work this morning, I guess not." I then got up to go to the bathroom. Suddenly, I felt a gush of water come down, and as it continued to come, I quickly realized that my water had just broken. I told Dave that I didn't think he'd end up going to work after all. After taking a little bit of time to get ready, we got to the hospital just before 6:00am right as the nurse's shift was changing and I thought I was lucky and would have the same nurse for my entire labor and delivery. Little did I know how long the day would be.

When I arrived at the hospital, I was dilated to a 5 and the nurse and the resident thought that I was lucky and off to a great start. Of course, progressing to a 10 took much longer than anticipated, but I was progressing enough that the Dr. didn't want to start me on pitosin. I finally got to a 10 around 5:00 - just an hour before my nurse's shift was going to end. I was slightly disappointed as I knew that I would most likely not be pushing the baby out before she left.

Although at a 10, the baby was only at a +1 station - she had not dropped very far into my pelvis, so the Dr. Wanted me wait until she descended a little bit more. Unfortunately, little Isabelle didn't want to descend, so the Dr. informed the nurse to go ahead and have me start pushing. I had a painful two hours of pushing with the nurse and resident. Although I had an epidural, it didn't seem to help with the pain I was feeling from the baby being slightly transversed. And even with all my pushing, the baby still did not descend far into my pelvis. The Dr. finally arrived after two hours of pushing and she soon realized this baby was not coming very easily, so she explained my options - trying the vacuum, and if that didn't work - going to c-section. I had already pushed so long and hard that I was determined to push that baby out, so I opted to try the vacuum. We had three failed attempts with the vacuum, and my uterus was wearing out and the contractions were slowing down, even with pitosin. So finally after FOUR long hours of pushing, Dave and I decided it was time for a c-section. With the combination of the drugs and the last few traumatic hours, I had become a nervous wreck. Thank goodness I had an incredibly kind anestesiologist and Dave right by my side to help calm me down.

Although they had to take the baby to the NICU for some oxygen and fluids, they brought her in for me to see her for a few short seconds before they'd take her away again. Although she was extremely pale, all I could think and say was how pretty she was.

After seeing me, she was taken to the NICU, but recovered fast and was only there for about an hour before they transferred her to the nursery. I am told that while in the NICU, she was crying but as soon as Dave started talking to her, she calmed right down. She knew he was her daddy.

The next few days were extremely tough as I recovered from the effects of both a vaginal delivery and c-section. As I could not do much but lay in my hospital bed, Dave quickly took on his role as a father and changed all her dirty diapers and comforted her when she was upset. It was so amazing to watch him take such good care of our little girl and to also take such good care of me. I am soooooo lucky to have such a great husband who would do anything for me and for our daughter. Our days in the hospital were not only spent in recovery, but they were spent in decision making, as we thought and thought about what to name our new daughter. Although we arrived at the hospital thinking we would call her Abigail, she just didn't seem like an Abigail. As I held our new baby and just looked at her, I was just amazed at how delicate, fair, and beautiful she was and wanted a name that described all those things. Thus, we came to the conclusion of Isabelle with anticipation of calling her Belle. It seems to fit her very well.

We finally left the hospital on Wednesday afternoon to come home. Thankfully, my mom came to stay with us for the next week. I honestly would not have been able to get through the last week without her. She was such an immense help as I have been recovering while trying to take on the responsibilities of being a new mother. My mom cooked, and cleaned, and watched the baby - allowing me to rest as much as possible. She was seriously such a huge blessing especially while Dave was away at work. I have definitely been missing her the last couple days. However, I am feeling much better as I am off pain killers and feeling more like a normal person.

These last two weeks have been filled with all sorts of emotions - anxiety, fear, pain, joy, happiness, and wonderment as we have taken on this new phase in our lives. Although getting Isabelle here was a bit difficult and traumatizing, it was also amazing and humbling. Thinking on the experience reminds me of how blessed I truly am. I am blessed to be living in this day and age when both Isabelle and I are safe and healthy even after such a tough delivery. I am grateful for good doctors and nurses. And I am especially grateful for such a wonderful husband and wonderful family who have been so loving and supportive through everything. I am grateful to Heavenly Father for allowing us to have such a beautiful baby girl in our lives.