This last week of being on bed rest has been kind of an eye-opening experience for me. I have learned a lot about myself and I have been made more aware of many blessings that fill my life. I am beginning to wonder if this bed rest has been for the very purpose of teaching me a few lessons before I have a baby.
Not only have I gained a larger appreciation for the small things in life - such as being able to walk and go to the grocery store, but I have also been made very aware of the numerous blessings Heavenly Father has given me in the recent years, such as a good job that allows me to work at home, an understanding boss, and an incredibly loving husband who will do anything for me.
It's sad how easily we forget about the simple blessings that have been bestowed upon us.
In addition to being more aware of the blessings in my life, this time is also making more aware of who I am and the changes that I am going to need to make once I bring a child into this world. Not being able to work as much or work at my office has been much harder on me than I ever thought. I didn't realize how much I actually like work and value work until I suddenly couldn't do it. It has been extremely difficult for me to take my focus off work and put it on myself and my growing baby. It is definitely a difficult adjustment for me to go from busy days at the office to trying to work at home while still taking sufficient time to rest. I cannot imagine how much harder this adjustment would have been to make with a baby to take care of in the mix (yes, I realize I have a baby to take care of right now - but a baby that cries and poops and needs to be fed regularly). I am slowly trying to learn how to balance my personal life and needs with work. It is proving to be much more difficult than I thought, but I am hoping that I will be able to have a better balance and system developed before our baby girl is born so I can be there as a mother for my baby as much as I can.
My hat goes off to women who 1) remain on strict bed rest for much of their pregnancies, and 2) learn to balance work and family life. Both are proving to be very difficult challenges for me and requiring sacrifices that I didn't quite realize would be sacrifices.
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Oh Jenn, I'm sorry about the bed rest..that's gotta be hard. Sometimes I joke that I would like to go into labor early, but I know it really is a blessing to carry full-term. Our prayers will be with you, keep us posted on how you are doing! Having a baby is a eye-opener and it really does change who you are as a person, you have to become so self-less. I'm still trying to get used to that and to have more patience. You'll have plenty to keep you busy once the baby comes, but I know what you mean about work. I worked my whole life, so I was nervous about quitting. There were a few lonely days where I needed adult interaction, but overall it is just amazing to be a mother and I know that you will be an awesome mom.
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